this is where I shall yap about my personal life. Posts may be regular or random, long or short, idc! I'm assuming this website isn't gonna blow up or anything I'm just really having fun. Also I'm a shite speller. not sorry bout that.
the last six days have been extremely chaotic. That is why I didn't post. A quick run down of what I did:
last day of school I hung out with the homies. We ate pizza and played halo while all my other friends went to the end of year party. But I'm a teeny bit to autistic for parties and my bff is Christian so we just hung out.
then the first weekend of the summer I went to a local con! I did take a photo of my haul, but it was on my instagram story so IDK man. I spent an insane ammount of money, but no regrets. All the shit I bought was super cool. On saturday I went as Tatsuya from Persona 2, but no one reconizged my cosplay. Which I fully expected but still sad man. On sunday I went as Bridget from GGST, and a lot more people reconized me! I even got some photos!!! yipee!!!! I also met my local guilty gear scene. I was pretty nervous but I tried my best to be social. Everyone was very nice, and I could tell everyone else were also autistic/ anti social nerds who probably didn't want to talk to a random stranger beyond "hey I like your cosplay". I joined the discord server and they are all very nice.
as for what I bought, I mainly bought prints and stickers. I bought two dungeon meshi prints (one farcille and one of Laois) and a Trigun Max print!! holy shit!! they all went on my wall along side my Eunseok poster. (fucking finally man)> I also bought a bunch of dungeon meshi stickers at a booth that had them for only a dollar!! As well as more trigun stickers, and a lesbian sticker. They have all gone on my laptop. I also bought a necklace that holds a d20 that you can exchange, as well as a pair of lesbian dice to go with the necklace. I also bought some cute resin dragon hairclips, but unfournately I cannot find a way to put them in my hair properly yet. But I will! eventually! To round it all off I bought a cute acrylic photocard holder for Seunghan that goes on my purse. Very cute, the vendor has a gowon photocard :3
I also had my first sleepover in like... 4 years? that same weekend. We watched a really fucking shitty movie called nightswim, it was only good since we were making fun of it. We also watched megan (genuinely quite good) and the first two episodes of AHS Murder House (lowkey terrible, but not like horrendous) It was a very fun sleepover that only fucked uo my back like a little bit.
then this monday I went to the mall to buy some new clothes and a bathing suit. I did in fact do that, even splurging on a expensive pair of pants I've been wanting since I got some grad gift money. The bathing suit I bought is a lot less dysphoria inducing, and my mom seems to think it was a descision to be more modest. Which she approves of, so a win ig. That same day I also bought myself my first gundam set on a complete whim!! Shes a 30 minute missions girlie, so shes pretty cheap. She does have some issues with limbs falling off, but I don't really mind. I should also probably try to clean up some areas with an exacto knife since some areas of her legs look scuffed. But part of that is also 30MM have pretty soft plastic. (shrug). It took me a couple hours to build her, and it was pretty fun!! I'm very happy with her results, and super impressed by how flexible she is. I'm looking into getting some more gundam soon, hopefully some more 30MM and maybe some higher quality ones like those from max factory.
Then on tuesday I completely purged my room of every random piece of crap I don't need. Clothes? gone! paper? gone! random shit in my closet and junk drawer? gone!!!!!! I got rid of a good chunk of stuff, and tbh I'm pretty impressed. I'll try to get rid of some more stuff but idk.
In general I've also been playing a lot more guilty gear, since I really want to become a better Testament. Because of that, and the fact that I death grip my ps4 controller like my life depends on it, I have a giant blister on my hand!!!!! I'm probably going to buy a leverless soon since I cannot handle these crazy hand cramps. Youch!
since then I've just been busy with catching up on some chores and a little work. I'll try to post more often ( i know I keep saying that) since its summer time now. Theres also some areas of the website I want to work on. Probably right now depending on how lazy I feel.
goodnight tristate area!
look down below! photos of Lia! (my gundam!) she fits in a little floaty thats supposed to be for a rubber duck. But its hers now. I don't make the rules.
today is my last day of highschool. litterarly wtf.
Since my grad ceremony I've essentially just been on the grind, both work and school. It's all gone by in a blur.
Its such a weird feeling. With everything that I do I realize that it's the last time I will be doing so. Like this is the last time I will be writing a blog post during my TA block. tf!!! It makes me kinda sad. It almost feels anti-climatic. But I am also excited. Excited for the summer with my besties, and excited for university and what ever it will bring.
Afterschool me and my homies are going to my bffs house, and we are eating dairy queen. I realize that that's a kinda lame way to end highschool, but we are all mega nerds who don't want to party. Also tomorrow I'm going to a con so thats infinitely cooler. Both of my cosplays are finished too!! (I mean kind of the bridget wig needs some light styling)
I realize this is super short but I just wanted to update the blog a little. The next couple of days will be super busy for me, but I'll try to take some con photos. idk. I'll deff take photos of the haul.
yesterday was my grad ceremony (singular tear)
I woke up (lookin like this) and did a shit bunch of house chores since I was so nervous. I also ate a really good breakfast and lunch.
the ceremony started at 1:30 but we got there around one, and I met up with a bunch of the homies. The ceremony itself was nice, my grad class is huge so they sectioned it into a bunch of smaller groups. So it was only around an hour and a half. The best part is I won two bursaries! I won't get into the specifics, but I won something! woohoo! I was super scared I wasn't going to win jackshit lol. But I did so I'm very happy.
I didn't get very many photos from the event since I took all of them myself. But the fit was cute and so was my makeup. I promise.
there was also minimum slip up of people calling me paisley versus my deadname, and I did the quickest improv in the car when my aunt asked "why was everyone calling you paisley?" but I think she bought my excuse. Let's hope she forgot that happened! (also shout out to the bestie, who said he was glad he didn't have to dead name me since he never had to refer to me by name. ;-; hes so nice)
Afterwards my bff was hosting a bbq that I went to. Super great bbq, his mom loaded us with food. We played uno and family fued in their basement. I had such a great time. It's crazy to me that theres only so many outings left with all my friends together as september aproaches and my bff moves away and I stay here. So I really cherished the moment.
They opened a bottle of champaign (def not how u spell that) but I didn't have any since my autistic ass is a real goodie two shoes. But it was nice ig. My bff and his boyfriend also had vodka shots. My bff reacted like it was nothing which was wild.
overall grad was super fun, and I'm glad I got to spend it with the people closest to me (heart)
today is fathers day. But alas I have no father to celebrate with, so I'm going shopping! Normally I don't leave my house on sundays since the bus schedule is shit, but I need stuff for my cosplay for a con thats happening this weekend. Only cutting it a wee bit close. I'm also buying some makeup, and hopefully any loossemble or p1harmony album. IDK we shall see what the store has, they have limited selection.
thats it for today, I might post the haul tomorrow but I will also be working on the cosplay since I work a shit ton this week so mondays the only oppurtunity.
what it says on the tin. I went to the beach for my friends birthday, but the weather was HORRIBLE so the water was too cold. I ended up leaving early since it was low key boring.
it was also a little awkward since the beach was kinda busy, so there were some old people stares (tm), but it wasn't like terrible.
we went out for lunch to an Indian resturant before and it was super yummy. we talked a lot of gossip lmao. I also bought a tub of ice cream, and it was only kinda melted! the birthday girl brought a bunch of chips, and there was strawberrys. It was a good hangout, but I wish I could have swam.
I'll probably do jack shit for the rest of the evening since I'm super tired from walking carrying all my heavy ass shit.
so thats it for today, bye byeeee
so yesterday was dry grad! And tbh! it was really odd!
it didn't really have enough to do, there was like gambling and bouncy castles but thats about it. Although plenty of free food.
the dj was absoloute shite, he played love story by Taylor Swift then put like a dance beat on top??? im not joking it was so bad it became kinda funny, but he also overused the bass which I don't like.
Me and my homies kinda just made our own fun, my one friend seaferret made a shit ton of money gambling. proffesional gambler.
at the end there was this like "foam party" with uv foamy soap (the theme was glow in the dark and UV) which was kinda weird, I feel like it wasn't advertized enough. None of my friends went in since we weren't trying to get wet, especially since I was getting a ride home. I would hate to get my besties car all soapy.
it was overwhelming I will admit, I went non-verbal for like an hour and a half? But my friends were pretty supportive. Honestly i'm so glad that I've surrounded myself with good people like that. It was so chill and I didn't feel pressured to talk at all. Eventually I was ready, but shout out to the paisley nation fr.
we also got cute shirts designed by friend :D exept they handed them out like half way through the event? So I knew a handfull of people who had to go home that straight up didn't get theirs. I hope they do eventually.
Before we even did this event we went out for dinner to boston pizza !! And we did makeup with my one friends uv facepaint. Very silly. My one talented friend with the facepaint did a cool butterfly design on himself, and did Tates makeup from AHS murder house on my bestie. I did Sukuna from JJK, and supringly no one reconisged it exept for like one person?? And I did the puppet makeup on seaferret. We did going to boston pizza looking crazy like that, but the stares were kinda funny. And we tipped well.
overall it could have been better, but I still had fun. I'm glad that I got to spend some time with my closest friends and supporters :3 I'm sad to graduate, but I'm glad I'm doing it with them (cry)
I did take a couple good photos, but they are selfies and group shots so I wont post them here. But I did slay the makeup for having such insane vision issues.
tomorrow I'm going to the beach for my friends birthday, and I'm super excited for that since its supposed to be nice. I'll try to take some photos of the water.
hasta la vista paisley nation, I'm super tired still from dry grad so its bed time lmao
note: there are spoliers for up to episode 22 of dungeon meshi below....
In the past couple of days I have been obessively watching dungeon meshi. It's so good. So silly :33333
I love the art style and designs, they manage to be so diverse. And it suffer from that disease were female non-humans look like alt humans and men look like monsters only a teeny bit.
I also appreciate that the fan service is relegated to senshi and laios, I mean there's the Falin Chimera ripping off her shirt thing but thats for the lesbians if anything.
the twist thiny with thistle is SO GOOD like this character that seemed to be a one off coming back and being the mad mage is crazy. I'm so excited to see where the show is headed, and see the tall man chilchuk people on tumblr are going crazy for.
This show also has really good autism rep?? Like obviously theres Laios, who people with better media anlysis skills than me have touched on, but honestly a lot of the cast can be read as autistic. Like Kabru, Izutsumi, honestly Falin and Marcille too if you really look at them. This show got better autism rep that the good doctor.
anyone who's been on the fence or curious I would suggest you give it a watch. or read if thats ur thing :p
today is also my schools dry grad! I'm writing this during my free period so it hasn't happened yet, but I'll try to update the blog soon with any photos and info.
baiiiii
wow. i uh. oops! I intended to update this blog regularly, but my life has been super draining recently. I kind of realised that if you dont acommidate for your disability for the past three years, and your graduating, all the stress and overstimulation all pressure of masking catches up to you and you feel like shit. So thats what I've been dealing with. trying to tackle school n shit while also making a sort of mental reset. Trying to doom scroll less. read more. bring stim toys to school. Generally be more honest with my friends when I'm overstimulated rather than just dealing with it. Thats a big one.
I haven't done anything crazy recently. Just school and work. idk man this is just crunch time. I'll try to update paisleysradio soonish since I have major thoughts. UHhhh
I went on a walk today, that was fun!! I got a slushie, and spent too much money on a chocolate bar and bag of cheezies. But paisley want cheezie so. I did in fact get lost on the way back, since I decided I wanted to take a diffirent route. The walk back from the gas station is primarily up hill and I always feel light headed when I finish it, so I was like "Oh! well I know of this little path, I think it'll take me to the right spot!" it did not. I ended up in a neighbourhood thats adjacent to mine but I've never been too. I got lost since I don't know how to read a map ig. But that was still good.
I also helped my mom purge a bunch of her clothes, because she is a horder. I need to get rid of some of my stuff too, which I shall do soon.
overall lifes been crazy and stressful, thought I'd just check in. I know nobody reads this, but it's a good outlet I suppose.
yesterday was my prom!! I had tons a fun hanging out with my friends, and I loved seeing everyone get all dressed up. I had never seen so many dapper suits and fancy dresses. I felt kinda underdressed ngl. (I wore a dress n shit, but not like a super fancy one.)(I was trying to serve butch energy)
I got ready at my bestfriends house, and his mom took us to the place where prom was being held like ridiciously early. Like the event started at 5:30, we got there at like 3:15. But we got a bunch of cute photos before the weather turned sour (its super fucking windy where I live). I haven't seen most of them yet, since they are all on my bffs mom's phone.
the food was low key just okay. Like we were told that the food was soooo good especially the mac and cheese and it was just FINE. Disapointed! but there was good desserts so that made me feel better. Dancing with the homies is always enjoyable. It was hard to boogie it down with the stomach full of mashed potatoes and dress but I tried. The music could have been better but they did also play some classic bangers and the tiktok rizz party song.
got some cute photos at a photobooth as well. I also won a gift basket!! It was like a nail care based basket so idk how much I'll be using the majority of things, but I'm glad i got something. A fun memory ig. overall it was lots of fun, but super tiring.
Walking around my city's downtown area at like 10:30 was a little sketch but also excitiing, since I had never been down there in the first place. I get crazyy gender euphoria from my fucked up screaming voice. oops! Then my bestie drove me and his boyfriend home, and we talked about summer plans. I desperately want to go camping, and go to the mall just the three of us. I need to teach my bestie how to dress better.
today I woke up at like 8:30, since I wanted to get up early despite the fact that I went to bed at midnight. Early to rise early to grind :fire:
after getting up n shit I decided to take off my press-ons. They are super cute, and I'll add a photo of me wearing them below, but jesus did they hurt. I def put them on wrong, so they hurt my cuticles like fucking hell man. I spent aprox. an HOUR trying to take them off, and the majority of them I ripped off after softening the glue with acetone and baby oil. youch. Sorry hands, but it was also worth it.
I told my physics teacher I would have a productive sunday and do my homework, but I'm straight lying. I'm probably going to spend the rest of my day relaxing and playing some video games. idk what yet. I did in fact do my chores and clean my room a lil. So thats a win! I will do physics tomorrow but alas rn I feel dead.
thats it for 2day, thanks for reading ig?
